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» Sunday, August 8, 2010 / -11:52 AM

So sad yet Disappointing...

Well, here I am writing too my dearest peeps who could tolerate my boring blog. Okay this post is unusual caz I am gonna type my feelings out to this blog about this very close friend of mine who was always there for me and is there when I face monotony until we became brothers or should we say 'blood brothers'... We made this pledge of ours that if we share our drinks in a cup, we are considered as brothers. It doesn't matter to me whether we have the same blood or not. I dun care if the bloods were mixed with chinese, malay, or indian blood as only our strong bonding counts to me... But then one day, he stops coming to school and that worries me. People starts to contact him and we were'nt able to reach him. As I said, we were brothers and I know how to make him reeply which was.... Nyehehehehehehe(: But then ended up quarreling a little and then settled. I asked about his prob and he replied "Banyak hal ahhh". I was so sad yet disappointed by his actions towards me. He never before once talk so harshly to me but this time, with some gangster accent which I hate a lot since I dun understand their language. He has changed. The way he react was as if he do not care about me and the other brothers... I was like, stunned and astonished. I really wanted to meet him. But he avoids me. I was so pissed off with him reacting that way towards me... Until one day I was with Ahmad and Fadzly. Ahmad said he saw Hafiz and I thought he faked me. But then I saw this chinese guy wearing a similar cap that I gave my own adeq. So shocked to know that its my own cap coz I can feel it. I'm the owner so I can feel somewhat it belongs to me since its something precious to me that I gave to someone who was more precious than this cap to me. OMG. Guess what? I saw my adeq walking towards me. Still the same reaction when we met. He hugged me and then... Walked away after a few words... I saw boy-star with him and was shocked because he was the one I met last time. I greeted him and then he asked me where I was going. I wanted to ask where he was going but... Haish... They have walked away... That time I feel like whacking my bro fer treating me like a fucker and then that cap of mine was given to someone else.. Now I know how he appreciates thing. Chat with him and asked why he lend it to others when he didn't even let me, the owner to wear that cap. He replied, Oh, that cap. When was it that I need it? I couldn't remember. OMG I'm fucking touched by you hafizuddin! Do you know I cried thinking about you? I'm fucking worried about you that pimple grows on my face WTF-.- I also thought about your parents. I know and am definitely sure that they are suffering from the way you are now. I know that time I tell you that live life without regrets but is this whatyou want? To be a corrupted human? HAHAHAHAHA! I bet that you are not touched by these feelings of mine and thinks of this as bull shit well fuck you as all I am saying is true goddammit! Well heed my advice and go back to school if you think that is the right choice and thinking of me as a brother, BONDED BROTHERS. Well did you forget all the times we had together? Those fun, happy moments? Some were boring but still, we were together man... But now? After we were bonded so close and you did this to me? HOHOHOHOH. That's great hahahahaha! Do you know that I have treated you like my own brother? Or should I say, more than my own blood related brother? I bet you din read this long winded thingy caz its just a waste of your time and I dun a single thing to you. Yeah! I'm just a fucking piece of thrash to you. Yeah. Its great yeah? Having a piece of garbage as yourr brother? Nyahahahahaha! Well this is enough... Enough tears flowing out of my eyes as I type my fucked-up feelings out.... Well, today...(sob) is a boring day.. I saw the fireworks of the YOG and my mind goes blank as the scenery and fireworks were awesome :D I suddenly got motivated just now and did my art and suddenly started thinking of this one good ol' friend of mine who breaks my heart to pieces. Brothers for life! Yeah fuck you for that!^^ Got random today and took some pictures of myself haha! So many pimples on my face)))):